Late nights. Cigarettes. Confessions.

Hello all!


So the name of my blog is cheesy. I'm talking sharp cheddar here. <3

My name is Heather, I am 24 years old. I have been blogging on and off since my early teen years...which consisted of mostly hormonal and illogical ramblings of how terrible my life was at the time. I love helping people...and the sense of community that comes with blogging. 

I came out of the closet in 2009. Thanks to a beautiful woman by the name of Lisa, I am free to be true to my soul. Ripping me out of my shell isn't usually an easy task, and I commend her for sticking with it. We had our ups and downs to say the least...


I smoke waaaaayyy too much. Almost as much as I think. Why do people hide from themselves? Facing the truth in the mirror may sometimes feel like you are staring death in the face, but it needs to be done to truly understand why you feel the way you do and who you would like to become. It takes solid commitment.. and it is easy to fall off track. I was a cutter at one point. Extremely depressed. Life experience has taught me that connecting with someone through their darkest fears is one of the strongest chains one person can have to another. This waves of this life get pretty rough, and it's nice to have someone out in the water next to you taking wave after wave. I understand that society has its sneaky little way of conditioning people into believing different scenarios as far as right, wrong, love, hate...etc. Find what you believe. Find what is honest in your heart regardless of what ANYONE says...and run with it. Run like a cheetah..lady balls flying in the wind. Ha. 


I also don't understand the motivation for people constantly lying to and betraying others. Its as if humanity has de-evolved into this... man eats man, survival of the one who steps all over the little people kind of society. Get ahead by dragging others behind. Selfishness dominates the most basic of human instincts at this point. Yes, you are important, but you are certainly not the only person that exists in this world, so quit acting like its you above all else. If you were meant to simply look out for yourself and screw over anyone that gets in your way, the population of the earth would be only you. Just a thought. 

There is always "Truth" ... behind "Just Kidding"
A little "Emotion" ... behind "I Don't Care"
There is always a little "Pain" ... behind "It's OK"
A little "I Need You" ... behind "Leave Me Alone"
And a lot of "Words" ... behind "Silence" ... 



Off to drink some tea, listen to some Tool and make sweet sweet love to my bed.